it's raining now.i hear the pitter patter of the rain drops on the zinc covering of the backyard.talk about a sympathetic background.
there's so many things that i wanna do after promos.i wanna go out with my bestie,i wanna watch a sunrise i wanna watch a sunset i wanna see a rainbow i wanna dance in the rain and not feel silly.i wanna find the one, i wanna organise a really really superbly great year-end celebration, i wanna spend dinner quietly with my entire family,i wanna spend time in front of the tv laughing/crying.i wanna get closer to God i wanna spend more time feeling together with my class.i wanna lie in bed hearing the rain fall down on to the ground,i miss hearing the rooster crow in the morning,i miss hearing the pop of the tennis ball against the racket.i wanna run again, i wanna be able to run with my dad and talk nonsense along the way.i wanna eat an ice cream in the freezing cold of Japan i wanna throw snow at my brother.i wanna hear my brother call me silly names, i wanna be able to stroll out on to the street feeling ultimately blessed with such a great family.i wanna watch people get married,i wanna be able to smile to myself when i see people happy.i wanna do little things to make people happy,i want the loved ones to be happy.i wanna organise a great great orientation with the ENTIRE council.i wanna spend more time with the loved ones.i wanna pick sunflowers in the fields, i want someone to give me jabreras for my birthday,all pink yellow red orange.i wanna walk on the beach,flipflops in hand,hand in hand with any of the loved ones,just keeping quiet and enjoying the silence.i wanna lie down watching the stars and the moon.i wanna go back to australia where it was quiet and starry and where i could see the Milky Way.i wanna run along that field and pat the sheep and run away when they swivel their head around to look at me,laughing all the way.i wanna sit in a car moving,my earphones plugged into my ears just watching the scenery pass me by.
there are so many things that i wanna do.there are so many things that i wanna say and wanna carry out.all these are the things that make me smile.i haven't smiled and felt blessed for a really long time.
